ndaikuaai

ndaikuaai... no se... i dont know

sometimes, when the sun sets on this beautiful world, you find yourself wondering what it is that brought you here, all the little things that fell into place and all the things the fell out of place, and you cant help but smile. good wood. cuts that have been made, choices that were chosen, things not done. all have their place. and we go on. keeping on with the life that we´ve made, the life that´s been made... and smiling is what natually occurs, because you know, deep down and on the surface, that to smile is to live. living, we smile. smiling, we live. the smile of a child that youve come to love. how that can make everything youre thinking and doing come to an abrupt stop, becasue the purity and the innocence are so very real... steeped in love. it is as if your whole body is overcome by the warmness of that breeze you long to feel on your skin, tickling each and every hair, making you feel so very alive. ha nde repensa, ko ha´e vida, ko ha´e amor, ko ha´e la mundo. and you think, this is life, this is love, this is the world. trusting, worlds can seem so intermingled, so immersed, that all you can do, because your body will do no other, is smile. there can be no other option presented because there simply are no other options. obeying the law that your body has accepted, you trust. we were born into bodies and into laws... some we break, some we bend, some we simply disregard beause for us they have no meaning. and some we obey, because being bodies, we must.

ko wednesday we find out were we´re going to be living for the next two years, and then the next day we travel to that very place to spend a few days. its a pretty intense time right now. so many things going on, i have to give a charla on tuesday in guaraní. we´re all pretty excited about the prospect of finding out our site, and at the same time its like ´dios mío man´we´re gonna be out on our freakin own in like dos semanas. crazy times.

we just got back on thursday from our ´long field practice´or a 5 day excursion to the site of a current volunteer. i have this weird feeling of ikatu vertigo right now... strangeness. i was sick for the first 2 days of the long field, so that blew. but then i took some meds and now i feel iporaterei. the community that we went to was beautiful... set in the mountains (or large hills) of paraguay. worked some language, worked some bees, planted some curves de nivel in the kokue of a farmer, worked with a farmers comite in their community garden and gave a charla on venenos caseros... overall it was a good time.

vertigo.trust.smile.obey.shatter.

peace
k